Everywhere I look
Beauty for miles and miles
Mind is racing
Heart is chasing
Emotions all over
Reason trying to take over
I am who I am
And will always be
A beautiful chaotic mess
But firm in thee
Sometimes I wander
And lose my way
Bring me back to you
Bring me back today
Do you ever feel like this? How do you deal with the chaos that happens in your mind sometimes? Do you ever feel emotionally out of control?
Penny for your thoughts hmmmmm…
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I’m just a simple girl that is passionate about being relevant and making a difference in this world.
World traveler, lover of bright sunny days, experiencing cultures, good friends and conversation. I love my God and love my family.
I don’t believe that I have the Truth, but that I have a relationship with Truth and want to be closer to Him.
Canadian, born and raised in Vancouver, BC. YWAMer since 2000 and have traveled and lived all over the world –Hong Kong, China, India, Bangladesh, Nepal, Afghanistan, Turkey, Germany, Argentina, Australia and The USA.
I moved to Brazil in 2002, married an awesome “Baiano”, Daniel, and we have two adorable kiddies, Caue and Hannah.
I am certified in fitness and nutrition and conducted physical conditioning classes while working with an arts and evangelism team and schools. I am also certified in TESOL (Teaching English to Speakers of Other Languages) and TEYL (Teaching English to Young Learners).
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23 thoughts on “A Beautiful Chaotic Mess”
That was lovely, Staci.
Emotions all over
Reason trying to take over
Yet sometimes reason cannot take over. There is the beautiful chaos of life. Like watching a raindrop alter its path down a window pane. No predicting where it will end, but it will find its way. There have been times that I’ve been emotionally out of control, but not in a bad way. The whirlwind of love comes to mind.
Hey Rob, great comment. I really liked the analogy of the rain drop. You really can’t tell which way it’s going to descend. Life really is like that. I really like that movie, “My Life in Ruins” and especially the part where the Greek guy says to the tour guide, “I don’t think you can plan life”. We often try to but many times it throws you some curve balls.
I am a strong feeler. And oftentimes have been impulsive because of feelings. I think it’s so difficult to think rationally when feelings are in the way. When I made my decision to marry Daniel, I had to pull away from the whole feeling/emotional side and look at it with reason and say, “He’s a good man. He’s got a strong temperament. We share the same vision. He’s an very gifted teacher.” I made my decision rationally.
I’m trying to find balance in my life between feelings and reason. With God’s help, I’ll grow.
Do you remember the scene in Casablanca, when Rick and Ilsa are in Paris and falling in love, yet the whole world as they knew was descending into the bleakness of war. That’s what it can be like, you literally get swept away in emotion.
I am so embarrassed to admit that I still haven’t seen ‘Casablanca’. Bad me eh. hehehe. I will have to see if I can watch it soon. My hubby gets back tomorrow. Let’s see if he’ll watch it with me.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for great emotions and feelings. God gave them to us for a purpose. I just have a difficult time seeing things clearly if I’m too emotionally involved (especially with the negative emotions).
Oh, I hope that I didn’t spoil the movie for you! Yes, it’s a great movie for the both of you to watch. 🙂
Nope. You didn’t spoil it. No worries.
Ah yes. I feel like this often. I haven’t found a way to deal with it. It is all new for me and slowly it is sucking the life out of my years. I used to find balance but lately I have none. There is nothing I do for me and I have no desire to do anything anyway I can really relate. Beautiful words put so perfectly together ❤️
I hear you. I find it so difficult when I’m in this whirlwind in my mind and emotions, to find balance and to get myself to a place of peace. And being a woman doesn’t help, thanks to raging hormones here and there. I make sure though that I get in some time for myself. Well, actually, the time for myself is really time for exercise. I have a bit of quiet time in the mornings too, and during that time my son watches vtech dinos on youtube and my daughter watches discovery kids. I go into her room, close the door, put on the fan for white noise and read a bit of my Bible and pray. However, lately it’s been more like, “Oh God, please help me. Oh God, peace please give me peace. Oh God…..
I hope and pray that you find time for yourself and get some balance in your life.
Thank you for the kind words.
Loving your poems, Staci. Simple but very profound. I feel like my mind is crazy all the time! Information overload. Overwhelmed, over-stimulated. Only solution is to slow down and look to God. Remember what is really important. Listen to His still small voice. He settles me. Thanks, Staci!
Oh Kate, thank you so much. I like how you said “simple yet profound”. I think that’s what I try to aim for. Life is too complicated already without trying to be complicated in the way I express myself.
I hear you about information overload and being overwhelmed/over-stimulated. Thanks to the advancements in technology and internet, this information overload has become the plague of the century, don’t you think?
“Only solution is to slow down and look to God”
–That really is the key. We really have to make our time with God a high priority. When we do, he brings us back to a place of being centered and at peace.
“He settles me”
Thanks a ton for your great comments Kate.
I absolutely think technology has a lot to do with it…and I am sucked in there right along with it.
Love your writing, Staci. Keep it up!
I hear you Kate. I also am sucked in there right along with it. Can you imagine what life would be without it now? I can’t.
Bless you and thank you so much for the encouragement.
Yes, I get overwhelmed, but take it one thing at a time. Just pulling your mind out for a second and saying a quick prayer to collect yourself is very helpful.
Hi Mark, yes, I guess everybody get’s overwhelmed eh. It’s part of living and growing. I totally agree with you about taking it to God. Man, I am so thankful that He is in control, that He is orchestrating the events of my life, that He is sovereign. I’ve learned that I am so dependent on Him for everything. Sometimes though, my mind and feelings get all in a tizzy and with the business of life it’s difficult for me to accept that peace and rest in Him. You know what though, He is soooooo loving and remembers that we are but dust, and He somehow seems to now how to quiet us down, or as you said, “collect oursleves”.
Thanks a ton Mark. =)
Beautiful poem Staci, love it!!! I too get overwhelmed and carried away by my emotions many times, like you I am a strong feeler with intense feelings – what helps me is to gently bring myself back to my breath, that usually calms me down and helps me get centered – need lots of practice though hehe
Hi Neeta. Thank you for your kind words and encouragement.
Yes, it’s tough being a woman, don’t you think. We women do tend to be stronger feelers than men. And some more than others, like you and me =). I go to God with my turmoil and lack of peace. Sometimes it’s just a matter of sitting down in a quiet place and centering myself and bringing my anxieties to him (like it says in the Bible, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything present your requests to God. And the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard you hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” I paraphrased a bit). And sometimes I come to Him in desperation like this, “Oh God, please help”. Either way, sooner or later, things work out and I’m at peace again.
Bless you =)
Thank you so much. I’m glad you read it and appreciated it.
How do I deal with the chaos in my mind?
I used to meditate, run, swim, dance, sleep, …
Now, I’ve come to jump onto the roller coaster and hold on for the ride.
Oh, I still do those other things, and the chaos isn’t quite as chaotic. But, each moment is still quite a ride, and I don’t want to miss any of it!
Oh, those are great ways to deal with the chaos in the mind. “Now, I’ve come to jump onto the roller coaster and hold on for the ride.”
–Hahahaha, good for you. Me too. Time and experience has taught me to do so.
Thanks for sharing Vincent.
Love this poem. I find taking time to be still helps to clear my mind and sort through what is causing me to become unstable 🙂
Thank you Crystal. Oh yes, taking time to be still is a must in my life. Sometimes my mind just won’t obey though, and that’s when I get all flustered.
Have a great week Crystal.