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Color me Green

Color me Green
Color me Green – Part 6 of a 9 part poem on mixed media

Did you know that green is the easiest color for the eyes to process? It is said to evoke growth, healing, peacefulness and calm. It’s the color of life and renewal. It is a secondary color, meaning it is made up of two primary colors – yellow and blue. It gets it’s optimism from yellow, and it’s peacefulness from blue.

It’s no wonder that my focus is on the green girl right now, because green is known to balance emotions. I have struggled for a number of years with… er, um… we don’t really know. I suffered with extreme insomnia for years, and finally did something about it when I wasn’t falling asleep until daybreak the next day. There were thoughts of it being depression, bi-polar disorder, anxiety disorder and ADHD. I had been on medication since 2004 because of it, however I was having some undesirable side effects. My doctor decided to change medications because of it. I was suppose to slowly wean myself off of the medication I was already taking in order to start the new one.

When I started lowering the dosage, I began feeling down, depressed and a bit irritated. I went to see a friend a couple of days into this and her sisters were there visiting. I told them about what I was going through and they prayed for me. Since then, my mood completely changed. Even my husband was shocked by how tranquil and easy going I had become. I’m still weaning myself off of it, but I really don’t think I’ll have to start the other meds.

Yes, I think green is a wonderful color. Balanced emotions for someone who has been unbalanced for so long is a huge delight.

Have you ever struggled with unbalanced emotions? What do you do to deal with them?



92 thoughts on “Color me Green”

  1. Your artwork improves with each addition, Staci. What did you use for the background? It looks like branches and leaves. My emotions tend to be even keeled most of the time. However, I tend to keep things inside me, and when something bothers me enough, all of it will come out, not always with the best outcome. I’ve learned to temper my emotions by being aware of what I may be experiencing. Count to ten, and then I proceed.

    1. Ohhhh, thank you so much Rob. I’m trying. Hahaha. I used tissue paper actually. Then I water painted over it. The rest is simply drawing and water color and some funky pens.
      So glad you’re balanced Rob. So glad I’m getting there too. Boy am I glad. It’s so tough dealing with overwhelming emotions when it’s an actual medical thing.
      Thanks again, my friend. You are such an encouragement to me.

      1. My pleasure, Staci. I’m truly honored to be called your friend.

  2. Your green girl is another gem, Staci! I love the leaves in her hair, on her dress and all the lovely little details. I think I have always been a person of a calm nature, but I do have periods when I feel unbalanced, such as thoughts running wild, loosing sleep and can’t find peace. These are the moments when I feel that I need to be in control of things (which almost always I don’t have any control of). In those moments I run to our Father and I ask for His peace and He faithfully answers every single time. There is such tremendous power in prayer. God answers, He heals, He calms, He restores. It’s amazing!

    Thank you for sharing your wonderful heart and your gifts! ❤

    1. Thank you so much Sibella. I’m trying to find different ways to be creative. I like this one, in particular.
      That’s so great to already have a calm nature. And isn’t it so wonderful that we have an amazing father that we can run too. He never disappoints. Peace that passes all understanding. There’s nothing that compares, is there?
      You said it all there in that last line Sibella. Great power, calm, healing, restoration. I’m sooooooo thankful.
      Thank you, once again Sibella. I sooooo appreciate you.
      🙂 ❤

      1. You are very welcome, my friend! You’re doing a wonderful job and your heart shines brightly through your art work and your rhymes!
        Yes, we are fortunate to know the Father of All and let’s do our best to share with others of His Great Love.

        I appreciate you too so very much and I feel like I knew you for a long time… Isn’t that wonderfully weird?! But again probably not weird at all because we are all one in Christ. LOVE and HUGS! ❤

      1. Awwww, thank you so much Richard. It really means a lot to me to receive such encouragement like this.
        Bless you.

  3. Hi Staci,

    I always liked the color green but not for the reasons you just taught me. 😀

    Honestly I can say I’m a guy who’s learning how to control my emotions. You know it’s bad when your wife tells you it’s that time of the month for you.

    But as I learn more about myself I never been taught how to express my emotions in a healthy way. Its all new for me.

    A lot of it comes from me thinking everything is about me.

    Surrendering and accepting life and its natural flow has helped the most.

    I love coming here and talking to you and seeing your art.

    Have a green day.


    1. Hi Vernon, it’s so nice to see you here. Thank you so much for your wonderful comment and for appreciating my work. I’m so glad that you enjoy this little space.
      “I never been taught how to express my emotions in a healthy way.”
      –I know exactly what you mean. I did not have a stable childhood. I lived in fear and anxiety of my Dad most of the time. I never really learned what it meant to be balanced and how to effectively control (or deal with) my emotions. I also thought it was all about me, even though it may not have been conscious. I now know that it was all about ‘ME’. Hahaha. I guess that as we grow older, and as God works in our lives, healing and bringing us to a proper and healthy worldview, we start to find that balance and change for the better.
      Thanks again Vernon, and you too – Have a green day.

  4. Staci, from a very young age, I was shy, quiet, and a good listener, yet I would always share myself and my thoughts with God. And it was just a natural happening. To some it may sound crazy but I would hear voices, spiritually, and they led me to His word…and the relationship has been that way all of my life. I began writing because of Him. There is a lot of inner peace which comes from His daily embrace. Sending you spiritual hugs and blessings. The image is awesome, and your words so embracing! You are a blessing!

    1. Ohhh, that’s wonderful Wendell. That you always shared your thoughts with God. I shared with him, but mostly out of my fears.
      I don’t think that sounds crazy. I believe that God speaks to us, spirit to spirit. Right?
      I agree 100%. Out of that relationship – His embrace (and not religious duty) we have inner peace – the peace that passes all understanding.
      Thank you so much for sharing and for your encouraging words. I’m so glad you like the image too.
      You are also a blessing Wendell.
      Have a wonderful day.

  5. P.S. I was not an avid church goer, more like a John the Baptist type…it comes alive in what I share…I mean my love for God, and the love the words share with others…His love!

  6. Hi Staci, your green girl is gorgeous, like a princess, and I can feel the balance on her. Green is perfect, do you see the trees, they are green and they are the perfect balance. Hoping you feel better soon.

    1. Hi Elizabeth. Thank you so much. I love that @ like a princess. It’s funny eh, she does seem to emit balance. Must be the nature type look and effect.
      Bless you.
      🙂 ❤

  7. Staci, I’m so sorry you’ve dealt with insomnia. I’ve always found it so complicated because it makes you so tired but it’s hard to sleep. I’ve been there myself. I’ve taken meds for help with it. The meds may help my insomnia but the side effects of the new Meds may cause me worse issues. It’s so hard to deal with physical ailments. ((((Hugs)))). ❤
    Onto your artwork! I am mesmerized with the beauty of it. It's stunning! You're so talented. Your description of green is soothing to read. 😉

    1. Hi Carisa. Oh yes, I suffered for a very long time with insomnia. Maybe about 8 or 9 years. I didn’t want to go on meds, but I finally gave in and did some testing. I found out I have hypothyroidism in the process, which kind of boggled my endocrinologist. Normally people with hypothyroidism are a lot more lethargic and tired. I was very hyper, and my mind wouldn’t shut off. Then I went to see a neurologist and he explained that I could have a hypothyroid but still be hyperactive. Then I went to a psychiatrist and he kept thinking I had bi-polar, even though every questionnaire he gave me would come back as no. I am just very happy that balance seems to be much greater in my life now. Even without the meds. I’ve almost completely weaned myself off of them and I’m so happy about that. No insomnia, no abnormal anxiety and irritability, plus I’m so content and happy. It’s wonderful.
      Thanks so much Carisa for your caring words. You’re a star.
      🙂 ❤

    1. Hahaha. Wonderful. I’m sure you look lovely in green too 🙂
      And great to hear that, even though you were tired, your mood wasn’t affected. WooHoo!.
      Lol. My schooling was in fitness and nutrition, soooooooo it’s very important for me to get my greens. Hahaha. Love it.
      Have a great day Sabiscuit.

      1. Thank you so much. I am going to remember you when I need any more advice on fitness and nutrition. Enjoy the upcoming weekend. xo

    1. Thank you Natalie. Yes, it’s wonderful. After all these years, the light is getting brighter. As for you…. how is your head, my friend? Please tell me it’s better.
      🙂 ❤

  8. Color and life is such a fascinating combination, we talk of colorful life and how to make life beautiful with colors…yes, each color has its own significance and signifies the essence of life and living. Green instantly directs us to the beauty and bounty of nature…the art work of yours with the green backdrop makes it strikingly different from all your previous art works. The little girl with the flowery hair style and the lovely dress, makes her an angle…I was about to ask you on the material and way you did the painting, I could read in your second comments that you have used tissue papers and some funky pens to get your beautiful imagination into reality…quite an interesting combination.
    Cheers to the calmness of the color green.

    1. Thank you so much Nihar for your kind comments and appreciation of my work. I’m so glad you like it.
      Oh yes, what would the world be like without color? Pretty boring, I think. Hahaha. And you are so right: Green does direct us to the beauty of nature.
      Have a wonderful Friday, my friend. I know that Thursday is ending for you now.

  9. Love love your artwork! Beautiful. Glad to hear of your improvement. Sharing the matters sometimes help and knowing people who close to us to care about us is truly comforting. Wishing you well and keep doing your creative work!

    1. Thank you so much Indah. You don’t know how much it means to me to read such beautiful and kind words of appreciation for my artwork. I really do love doing it and I put my all into it. I’m so glad you ‘love’ it.
      Oh yes, after many years of battle with my emotions and meds and all, I’m thrilled to be free and healed up. And you are so right. It is very important to talk with others that care about us. It’s very comforting indeed. I am so blessed to live in a community situation where I can be open and vulnerable with those around me.
      Have a wonderful rest of the week Indah.
      🙂 ❤

  10. Yay, for Green, and for prayer! Green is my favorite color, probably because I have struggled with unbalanced emotions much of my life. Learning that I probably have autism has helped me understand more of where my emotions come from. But the prayer of friends, obedience to and comfort from God’s written word and the Holy Spirit’s daily leading make a huge difference. There are a few times where I have needed anti-depressants, and things like getting exercise and sleep also help a lot. It is so cool to read your testimony! It encourages me to know that God continues to answer prayer, so the next time that I am down or struggling with insomnia, I now have more confidence to get prayer for it. Thanks!

    1. Ohhhhhhh so wonderful Heather. I’m so glad that this testimony was able to increase your faith. Yes, I’ve struggled for years as well with unbalanced emotions and all too. When we found out that our son has Asperger’s Syndrome, my husband did all sorts of research. Then he looked at me and said to me, “Staci, I think you have the same thing.” Hahaha. I don’t think I have autism or Asperger’s, but I did have a very unstable upbringing. That’s probably why I had all the difficulties. I’m just so happy and content to be off the meds and be doing well. God is sooooo great. I’m so glad you walk according to His word and ways. That makes us sisters then. Hehehe.
      Bless you Heather and have a wonderful day.

  11. This is adorable, absolutely mesmerizing 😀 …..u did put in a lot of effort as u usually do and it all payed……. Loved the eyelashes, the varied green in the hair….the veins in the backdrop…the beads like on the dress..’divine’…how do u plan all this???
    Its so pleasing to hear u r coming out of ur problems and r in no need of other meds….I knw u’ll come good…….god bless u 🙂

    1. Oh Saaransh, I always love reading your comments. Thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement and for appreciating my work. I really do put my all into it. I love doing it so much. This one, in particular, was so fun. The next girls will be black and red. Hmmmm, what shall I do for them???… 🙂
      Oh yes, I am so happy and content to be finding more balance in my life, and without the meds. So liberating.
      Many blessings to you, my cheesecake-loving friend. Speaking of which, maybe I should make a cheesecake… I think I’m going to the supermarket later now. Hahaha.
      🙂 ❤

      1. Yes ur hard-work and love for doing these is very palpable, keep it up …..so as graceful as black and as desirable as red are nxt hmmm….can’t wait, keep me guessing ! 😀 lolzz………..ha ha ha cheese cakes always works….may b I too shud grab one from the market now 😛

      2. Hahaha. You go and grab one. I actually made one yesterday. Hahaha. The power of suggestion eh. Your suggestion, at that. Hahaha. Mine isn’t lemon though. Just a regular cheesecake with bitter sweet melted chocolate swirled into it before baking.

      3. ‘…cheesecake with bitter sweet melted chocolate swirled into it ..’ u making me weak at my knees with all this ….hahaha….surely need to catch one now 😀

  12. I have always heard green attributed to nature and peace. In fact, most of the Islamic schools were I live, have green as their uniform. I am glad to hear your insomnia is under control. I suffered from it during my first three years of med school, but I guess it was due to the high amount of stress my body wasn’t used to. Now though, it’s like I never went through that. 🙂

    1. Hi Ameena. Oh yes, green is definitely attributed to nature and peace. All we have to do is look at the grass, trees, leaves, etc. That’s interesting about the schools and the uniforms being green. Do you think that’s intentional?
      I would most definitely think that your insomnia was because of high levels of stress, being that it was during a stressful time in your life where your performance meant everything. And being that you don’t suffer with it anymore (right? 🙂 ) it seems like it was most definitely because of that. So great that it’s such a distant memory now.
      Have a beautiful Sunday.

  13. I do find green very calming in this restless frenzied world.

    Too often I am too busy to get out and immerse myself in God’s creation, yet when I do, I realize I need to get better priorities in place.

    Thank you for sharing so honestly and from the heart Staci. Sleep in something that so often eludes me. I will easily fall asleep, but will wake 3-4 hours later, and not be able to get back to sleep.

    So much can be said about the power of prayer. What a powerful statement, “since then, my mood completely changed”.

    God bless you friend! 🙂


    1. Thank you Carl. This world is, no doubt, a crazy and frenzied place. It’s a good thing that we look forward to a better place eh.
      I am so thankful to live where I do, and with who I do. Our YWAM base is full of natural beauty, and of course Brazil is usually sunny. We also live in community. We have our own place on the base, as a family, but we eat lunch together in the dining hall, we have different events throughout the year, and there is always the opportunity for relationship. I love this. It does a world of good for me, and for my kids. It also helps to keep things simple. I truly believe that great happiness is found in simplicity. In living a simple life.
      The insomnia I suffered was chronic for a number of years. I think about eight or nine. It wasn’t until I got on the meds for an anxiety disorder that I started sleeping. That was in 2004. It is truly horrible not being able to sleep. I was able to get off of the meds shortly during my pregnancy with my son, however once he stopped nursing, all of my symptoms came back. I wasn’t able to get off of them during my second pregnancy though. Only briefly in the last month until the first month after she was born. I hope and pray that this continues. This new found freedom from the meds, and freedom for the adverse effects of med.
      God is sooooo good, isn’t He?
      Many blessings to you Carl, and have an amazing weekend.

      1. Was not aware of the community atmosphere at your YWAM base and this is so cool. Having that support of other Christians around you almost goes back to the model of the early New Testament church.

        It would be such freedom to be away from the meds. God really is good! 🙂

      2. Oh yes, the only way that I am able to homeschool my Aspie son here is by living in a community setting. I wouldn’t be able to otherwise, as homeschooling is not common here. It actually just got the ‘OK’ by the government. Literally less than three weeks ago.

  14. I love her!! 💖💖. I could not find her in the reader so I came here via your comment on my site 😊. My mother also had sleeping problems, or she still has, but she says it is due to stress in her office. I can get irritable when I have my ” I am so tired and frustrated with India” moods, or when I get disappointed with the world. I am way too polite to show it, so I hide at home and stamp my feet and punch my pillow and throw ice cubes from my balcony into the river, and listen to Taylor Swift’s Shake it off or Bad blood. Those are my angry songs. Sometimes I yell at people, I mean I just pretend to, I am really just alone talking to the sky, but it helps me to get it out! And I tell myself not to be guilty about being angry and not to try to calm down until I have expressed my anger. But I have a tough time expressing anger and frustration so for me getting it out in a harmless way is a good thing, I did not learn to do that until I was in like 21! Before that I would just cry silently and take the frustration inwards.

    1. Ohhhh, hahaha. You probably couldn’t find he post in the Reader because I think I posted it on Monday. I only post once, maybe twice a week because of my time restraints and all. I’m sooooo glad you ‘love’ her. I thought you’d appreciate her.
      Sleeping problems are horrible. I’m so thankful and glad to not have to take medication any more for my insomnia though. Actually, when I went on the meds, it was more to treat an anxiety disorder. Because I was going to be already anxious and thinking I wasn’t going to fall asleep.
      Ohhhhh nooooo, @ ‘I am so tired and frustrated with India’. I can understand where you’re coming from. India is such a special place, but the culture is very different from Norway I think, right?
      That’s great that you have found a safe and healthy way to deal with negative emotions and anger Trini. People that leave it all in and don’t deal with in some way or another really hurt themselves. Serious sicknesses can come about because of locked in emotions. Not to mention bitterness, which utterly takes over peace of mind.
      Thank you so much for sharing this with me Trini.
      Bless you and have an amazing Sunday (I think you’re at Saturday night right now 🙂 )
      🙂 ❤

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  15. A beautiful write and a darling drawing! May you find peace that surpasses understanding!!
    Sending you lots of green love 😀

  16. I agree that green is calming–that is why spring is my favorite season. After a long period of the dark grey winter (at least where I live :)), it’s nice to feel a sense of rebirth and new beginnings at spring when things start to become green again. I’m glad you’re starting to feel better with your mood–it definitely shows in your beautiful art!

    1. Thank you so much Crystal. I like Spring too. Of course here, it’s like summer. But I like Spring in Canada too (it’s just a bit too cold though 🙂 )
      I remember those long, grey winters. Ugh. I could never go back to that.

      1. I don’t blame you–I think if I ever move to warmer climate–that will be it, I will not return to live in colder climate again 🙂

    1. Ohhhhhh, so lovely to be in nature a lot Alok. I am surrounded by beauty in nature myself. I love it.
      Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I’m so glad you enjoyed this one.
      Have a wonderful week.

    1. Heyyyyy Benjamin. So great to see you here. How have you been? Long time, no see. Have you been busy?
      Thank you so much for the lovely comment. Green is a great color to have a fav.
      Have a great weekend.

      1. Yeah, maybe too busy and working too much perhaps. Sorry for the late response. You’re welcome. Hope you’re having a great week!

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