The Escape… …The Return

a longing
to escape
jump off the world
take a break

searching out
hope to find
a place of solace
peace of mind

raging emotions
battling for space
depriving spirit
trembling base

stop and pray
breathe in deep
pray to him
start to weep

suddenly
i see his face
home again
in his embrace

Have you ever felt like you wanted to jump off this roller coaster ride called, Life? Like you wanted to say, “Good bye world. I’m going to get on the carousel now with the pink ponies, bright lights and cheery music?” I have. In fact, that’s how I was feeling yesterday, and the start of this poem was birthed.

Earlier this week I wrote another poem, due to the stress I was under. It sounds like I’m trying to be a bit of kill joy or downer. That isn’t my intention though. We all have bad days, weeks, months, you name it. But that’s also what builds beauty and character in to our lives, don’t you think?

I know that in this world, I will always have trouble. In this world, all people will have trouble. But I choose to run to the one who has overcome this world. I cope with the stresses of life by stopping, praying, breathing in his waves of peace and submitting to his embrace. Aahhhhhhhhh.

What are your coping mechanisms? When life gets too tough for you, do you give up? Or do you push through until you see the light at the end of the tunnel?

Simple Place

 

(Photo taken from: http://www.themiraclejournal.com/2012/02/04/the-miracle-of-a-broken-heart/)

 

There is, there is a simple place
Where I can go and be myself
Where I can see him face to face
And in, and in that simple place
I can go and hide away
And I can be alone with him

I can tell him all my secrets
That I share with almost no one else
I can be open and honest, without fear
Cause he knows the deepest needs that are in my heart

I can be, I can be simple with him
That’s what he wants, that I be real with him
And I, I would have it no other way
Then be myself, be who I really am with him

I can tell him all my secrets
That I share with almost no one else
I can be open and honest, without fear
Cause he knows the deepest needs that are in my heart

Is there anyone that you can be totally open and honest with?  Anybody that you can share your deepest thoughts and feelings with, and know that you won’t be judged? I do.

Now, I don’t want to sound like a religious freak here, but I’m going to go out on a limb. This song was written about the quiet times I have alone with God.  Being a Christian, I believe in Jesus and that in him I live, move and have my being.  That said, it is very important to me to spend quality time with Him. To have relationship.  Because ultimately, I believe that is why God created mankind.  For relationship.  I love how Sarah Young puts it in her book, ‘Jesus Calling’, “He and I are intertwined in an intimacy involving every fibre of my being.” I love this quote.

Truth be told, this isn’t my greatest recording.  At times I go flat and it sounds like I’m tired (I did have a baby at the time), but this song was written about these times I have alone with God.  He is my safe place. He is where I can unload all of my crap and know I’ll be understood.

So, back to you. I’m interested to know. Is there anyone you can be totally open and honest with? How do you unload your crap? Do you have a secret place where you go to find peace and unload your burdens?

See also:   https://stacilys.wordpress.com/2013/11/15/food-for-thought-friday-zucchini-crust-pizza-and-intertwined-in-intimacy/

SHUT UP!

 

(The Scream – Impressionist painting by Edvard Munch)

Shhhh
Quiet
Stop yelling

Shhhh
Settle down
Stop rushing

Shhhh
Enough
Information overload

Thoughts are too many
Emotional breakdown
Tears come
A plead, a cry

I need you
Giver of peace
Tranquilizer of affliction
Still my troubled soul
Bring me back to you

Do you ever feel like this? I think we all do at some point or another.  Being a strong feeler, it’s difficult to separate my emotions from reality at times.  I wrote this last week during a time of great mental and emotional turmoil.  If I remember correctly, I did so even in tears.  How do I deal with these situations? I pray and struggle and cry and sometimes rectify…  And then comes peace.

How do you deal with mental and emotional upset? Does this poem resonate with you? What is your ‘calming down’ or ‘getting centered’ process?

Worry – Oh how art thou heartless

Oh, the myriad of troubles that plague my mind
Robbing me of all peace
Worry creeps in and lies
Blinding my eyes
From my source of security
Anxiety takes its toll and steals my precious sleep
Thoughts racing frantically
Each one stabbing at tranquility

But, oh my enemy – WORRY
You will not have me
You’re like a dog chasing its tail
A chicken with its head cut off
A deep, dark, black hole
I realize that

I return my thoughts to you Almighty
My center, my help
For you will shape my worries into prayers
And the weight of my burdens are lifted
The closer I am to you