WHY?

I absolutely love the movie, “Peaceful Warrior”.  It has inspired me to do a blog series called, “Who, What, Where, When and Why?” This post is the fifth and last of this five part series.

Why are you scared?

Is it because you feel so empty?  Why do you feel so empty?  Are you searching for fulfillment in things that just don’t satisfy?  Are you wondering what your purpose is here on this earth?  Are you thinking that you may not amount to anything?  That you may not make it in this world?  And how is it that one “makes it” in this world?

I remember when I was graduating from high school.  I thought to myself, “What am I going to do with my life?” I remember thinking about how I loved theatre, music and dance and loved doing musical theatre.  Throughout my younger years I had been involved in various different productions.  In elementary school I was in a musical version of Cinderella.  Then during my adolescence I was in the musical Oliver Twist and even played “Anne” in Anne of Green Gables.  I took dance classes, voice lessons, acting classes and so on.  However, I was a very insecure individual with low self-esteem and thought that I would never make it in the industry, and that it was pointless for me to even try.

A few years after high school though I had an encounter with Truth – the Living God.  He came into my life in such a powerful and extraordinary way that I have never been the same since.  He permeated every fibre of my being and started to take ahold of the lies that I had believed and the damage that had been done.  He started to heal me up and make me into a new creation.  I had been born again.  That’s what Jesus does.  Lies can’t hold up in the sight of Truth.  When light comes, darkness has to go.

Soon after, I received a calling from Him.  A calling to go into the nations of the world and minister to people’s lives.  A calling to share Truth using the performing arts.  And as of May 2000, this calling started to come to fruition.  I set off for Hong Kong for training and soon traveled throughout various parts of Asia, sharing Truth using the performing arts.  I then moved to Brazil and joined an arts group, doing the same thing.  I had “made it”.  I was living and doing what I thought would bring me satisfaction.  But you know what? It didn’t bring true satisfaction.  You know why? Because I cannot be defined by what I ‘do’.  And it isn’t what I do that will cause true and lasting peace, satisfaction, contentment, joy, fulfillment, and the list goes on.  What I do is not who I ‘am’.  And who I am is what will remain throughout all of my life and into eternity.

I can say, with confidence and full surety now, that I am a woman that is fulfilled.  And it is not because of what I do.  It’s not because of what I have.  But it’s because I am found in Him.  I am in a living, active, passionate and intimate relationship with Him.  He has made Himself one with me.  And that’s what brings me meaning.  That’s what brings me satisfaction and contentment.  That’s what brings me security.

So then, there is nothing to be scared of.  There is no room for fear.  He that put the sun in the sky and brought everything into existence is with me.  And I will remain with Him.

Are you worried, scared and anxious about your life? What’s got your heart in a loop?  Leave a comment and let me know.